FINALLY

 AFTER SUCH A LONG TIME OF BEING SILENT ABOUT WHAT'S DEEP INSIDE... I CAN FINALLY LET IT ALL OUT WITHOUT THINKING IF HE WILL DUMP ME OR IGNORE ME FOREVER.

 FOR MONTHS I HAVE TRIED TO GRAB HIS ATTENTION... PHEW! STICKING TO ONE - THOUGH I KNOW IT'S A RISK KNOWING HE MIGHT OR MIGHT NOT RECIPROCATE MY AFFECTION AND MY FEELINGS - HAS FINALLY PAID OFF! 

 GOD I KNOW NOT TO COUNT THOSE SLEEPLESS NIGHTS WHEN MY MOBILE PHONE BEEPS AND IT'S HIS NAME THAT POPS OUT AS THE SENDER... LORD YOU JUST DON'T KNOW HOW IT MAKES ME SMILE KNOWING ONCE IN A WHILE... PERHAPS A SPLIT SECOND IN A DAY I GET TO FLASH IN HIS MIND... AND I DON'T MIND IF IT'S SO SHORT A TIME HE'D THINK OF ME. THINKING OF HIM IN ALMOST EVERY SINGLE THING I DO IS ENOUGH TO MAKE MY DAY COMPLETE.

HE'S WAAAAAYYY OLDER... AND SO? LIKE I'D GIVE A DAMN ABOUT WHAT PEOPLE WILL THINK! I MEAN... HEY!!! FINALLY...IT'S HERE... I'M HERE... HE'S HERE AND WE'RE BOTH HERE - WHY SHOULD I THROW IT ALL AWAY JUST BECAUSE OF WHAT THOSE DAMN IDIOTS THINK? NO WAY! IM HAPPY WITH WHAT'S HAPPENING NOW.

FINALLY... I GET TO LET HIM RECOGNIZE IM EXISTING AND LOVING HIM DESPITE BEING THOUSANDS OF MILES APART...

 FINALLY...

I CAN SMILE